You're Unusual For a Reason
You might not know
Because I'm pretty good at covering it up
But ever since I was a young boy, I could feel it inside...

The energy of an outsider and someone who was a bit unusual
For many, this might sound a bit negative or sad, but it's not at all
In fact, the more aware I become, the more comfortable I am with it all
I no longer see it as a weakness of mine, but instead as a strength
It's what's allowed me to go on crazy journey's in my life
It's what's allowed me to be ok with being alone
It's what's allowed me to accept who I am
It's what's allowed me to be myself
I'm an unusual outsider...
The Mind Machine
My mind doesn't stop
It's been that way as long as I can remember
Especially after a long day of work, thinking, or mental activity
It's as if I'm always "ON", and the mind doesn't like the "OFF" setting
Often times I find the mind analyzing past, present, and future opportunities
Trying to learn something, decide on something, or plan for something
When in fact, all I prefer at times is that it shuts down and rests
It's the reason I enjoy the time alone and don't complain
I need it to reset and slow down all the brain activity
At times, it's like I'm on a different frequency
An outcast on his own wavelength
Observing all of you...
The Dilemma
When you're different
It's impossible to be like the rest
You struggle to follow the norms and fit in
And the ones that do, are only hiding their true self
This will kill you inside, and it's what was happening to me
On the other hand, when I was young, I didn't want to be different
I was not aware of my unusual uniqueness and the ability to own these traits
Instead, I spent my energy trying to be like everyone else around me
Which confused me even more and took me down an odd path
A path that was made for someone else and not for me
But an outsider never stops searching for a home
And a few years ago, I got back on my path
By ending my own internal dilemma
And accepting the outcast...
The Creativity Hack
Go back as far as you want
But popular artists are often unusual too
And also have trouble with addiction and mental health
For some reason, this creative energy often comes with its difficulties
Or is it the difficulties that develop the creative energy within the unusual ones
Either way, it's often the awareness and ownership of their own uniqueness
That allows them to put their energy towards more creative activities
By accepting who they are instead of fighting it day after day
In the end, this goes for every single one of you though
The sooner you accept your special uniqueness
The sooner you can leverage it's powers
And create what others can not
The ultimate outcast...
The Lesson
Let's not overcomplicate it
It's the reason we often make mistakes
We overcomplicate simple things and overthink
When in fact, we should think less and find simple solutions
Simple solutions like being true to yourself, instead of trying to fit in
Simple solutions like leveraging your uniqueness, instead of hiding it inside
Simple solutions like understanding the outcast within, instead of judging yourself
And to do this, I often need to quiet the mind machine I spoke of earlier on
Which I do with meditation and yoga, both great tools for the mind
That allow you to connect with yourself on a deeper level
So that the unusual outsider can finally be heard
And accepted for what they represent
You're the only one stopping it...
With Love,
Steven Arthur George aka CannaBeMe